The past couple of months, I have truly been thankful for all the blessings God has given me over the past 4 years. Before then, all I could think about was whether or not I would be high during the holidays. I try not to think about those days, but I just can't seem to stop as the new year approaches. It's not because I want to go back to that way of life. It's not because I want to feel that way again. Since Thanksgiving, God has been showing me what I used to be so that I can see what I am now.
I have been unleashed from the chains of addiction by the grace of God. He took away my need for drugs and replaced it with my need for Him. I can now think about how much fun I thought I was having and not feel the urge to use. Not everyone who is in recovery can do this. This is one of the many blessings that I have received. In the past, my holidays were all about getting high. Now they are about spending time with my family, recognizing the great things that we have been blessed with, and celebrating without drugs.
Phillipians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
This verse sums it all up! I can do anything through Christ. I have beaten addiction. I have accepted Christ. I have restored my family relationships. I have become a dedicated employee and church member. I have reached out to people that I don't even know and told them what God has done in my life. I couldn't have done any of this without Christ. I wouldn't be where I am today without Him.
This New Year's Eve, I will be at home with my family watching TV, playing games, and just spending time with my children before school starts back next week. I won't be locked up in my bedroom getting high, not even allowing them to knock on the door. I won't be peeping out my mini blinds every time I think I hear something outside. Life is so much better and easier!!!
I challenge you to look back to your old self and thank God in Heaven for what you have become.
If you're still in active addiction, I challenge you to look at yourself now. Look at what you have become and know that it can be fixed!!! Your life matters to God and to me and to so many others. I used to be you... and if I can be fixed, so can you!
Becky's Key for the Week: It's okay to look back to see how far you have come, as long as you don’t dwell on the past, glorify it or go back. Remember, YOU can do all things through Christ, if you allow him to strengthen you.